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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2005|11:08 pm]
Kristen
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |Because of you By: Kelly Clarkson]

I wish I could find that one smile once again. That is my only wish right now but for some reason I don't think that it will happen anytime soon.... :(

Bj knows me all too well...and I'm sry BJ but I cant help but think about that one person. I know I shouldnt cuz it just brings me down even more, but it kinda helps thinking about em in a way.
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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2005|12:38 am]
Kristen
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[music |You and me By: Lifehouse]

I dont even know where to begin. I'm frsuterated with a lot of things. I hate school, well my professors, things at home are getting a little better slowly, I have yet to see my grandmother, Dan screwed me over and wont even answer his phone to me. BJ I love you to death, and Alex I love you to death too. Thanks for being there for me guys and listening to all my crap and helping me thru all the tears. I dont understand y i am put thru all the bad. Why can't I have something good happen in my life. I wish I had my perfect guy by my side again. I still regret telling him not to come see me. BJ is right, I turn to him as my comfort everytime a relationship doesn't go good for me. I def need to stop that cuz it will just make me go crazy. It's not good for me to want to fall back on that one guy everytime something bad goes for me. I can't because he actually isnt even there... he's taken now and in the same place as he has always been. It's all my fault that he is taken and I cant help but still feel the guilt from it.

Good news is I'll have my new car hopefully this weekend if everything goes well. I'm excited about that one. Then I can go and visit all my friends...and maybe even a road trip. Who knows...

I'm going ot be lost when my best friend leaves me. I know she will leave too which is the sad part. What am I going to do w/o her? I dont even want to think about that one yet. I'm just depressed about everything. I hate this time of year I swear!
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i hate school [Nov. 1st, 2005|01:29 pm]
Kristen
[mood |stressedstressed]
[music |CMT]

Ok what to do? I am so overly stressed out that I want to just give up! I know I wont give up though cuz I wont allow myself to as much as I may want to. I just need to stick with it for another few years and I'll be done! I honestly cant beleive how stressful school has been for me this year so far. Im def not looking forward to taking classes next semester. This was suppose to be my easy semester too. Damnit! Ok well I have some studying to do so ill continue this some other time!

*Kristen*
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Happy Halloween [Oct. 31st, 2005|09:36 pm]
Kristen
[mood |exhaustedexhausted]
[music |Can't fight the moonlight By: LeAnn Rimes]

Alright so Happy Halloween everyone! Def time to drink all my frusterations off! Just kidding! I worked off my frusterations so it works! Just drinking cuz tonight is halloween and we are having a party! This is like the most drinking I have done at all up here. The weekend was def crazy and tonight it continues! I cant wait till after Laguna Beach to party! I finally got to talk to Dan! :) Even tho he called while I was working out, I still talked to him for a bit cuz I was just sittin on the bike, peddling a couple miles. I'm glad I got to talk to him tho. I do have to admit that I am starting to get attached slowly. I can't help it though. The more I hang out with him and talk to him, the more I find that I like him. I usually get really attached to guys really fast but this one I took slow and it has worked so far. I cant wait to see him again...I'm excited!

*Kristen*
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The weekend [Oct. 30th, 2005|04:27 pm]
Kristen
[mood |sicksick]
[music |I need you By: LeAnn Rimes]

What I weekend that's all I have to say. Thursday I came home which was only suppose to be for the day cuz I need to get more pills from planned parenthood. Then I stopped by to see little BJ cuz he had called me the night before and wanted to see me for a bit cuz he really missed me and we didn't get to hang out the last time I was home. So I went to his house and then went to his haunted house with him to watch the behind the scenes for a bit. That was fun cuz we had the chance to catch up on a lot of things. Then I talked to Dan and went to see him real quick since I was right there in Davison. He was going to Canada for the weekend with Mike for Mike's bday so I told him to becareful and all that good stuff. I got back to my house around 10ish and was starting to pack my stuff up and it started raining and stuff and my mom didnt want me driving in that late int he rain back to the nasty, so i stayed the night and left in the morning cuz I didnt have nething with me to stay the night in town. My mom was a little upset cuz she didnt get to see me and neither did my dad but they came up Saturday morning to tailgate for the game with my aunt bridget, uncle tim, and the kids. That was a lot of fun. We drank friday night a little bit, and last night. Last night was just crazy tho. I drank way too much!!! I couldnt walk straight thats how bad I was fucked up. Oh well tho, it's been a while since I actually drank that much. I'm feeling pretty shitty right now tho. Def woke up at 2 this afternoon. lol

**If I could make every person happy, I'd be super women...but I'm not capable of doing that. So everyone just needs to back off!**
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(no subject) [Oct. 27th, 2005|06:05 pm]
Kristen
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Crazy by Britney Spears]

Ok lets see what has been going since I lost wrote in here....

School is kicking my ass as usual. Math is actually getting kinda difficult for me, but I'm taking care of it. I have my next english paper due on Monday...lets pray of a B! Other than that school is alright.

The weekends have been good. Ive actually been home for the weekends lately. I got a lot of things accomplished while at home. I wish there was more that I could actually have done, but there just isnt anytime. I didnt get to see a lot of people that I wished I could have. I feel really bad about it too...

Things between Dan and myself are going good. Everytime we hang out, I get the good ole butterflies in my tummy. Kinda different for me cuz that rarely happens to me.  We went to the movies over the weekend and got some food afterwards.  I guess coke n rum and chinesee doesnt go good with my tummy. lol I felt so bad that I had to wake him up and have him take me home. That was just horrbile, but I didnt want to get sick at his place neither, so I guess it works out. Nothing but smiles!

I talked to my dad and I guess we are going to go car shopping over Thanksgiving because that is most likely when the check will get to the house. I told him that I wanted to G6....that would be pretty nice! We'll see how things go though.

This little Korean is outta here... Hugs *N* Kisses

*Kristen*

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BAD DAY! [Oct. 19th, 2005|12:39 pm]
Kristen
[mood |aggravatedaggravated]

I am so pissed off right now. I'm just sittin here in English class and we got our Education papers back, yeah the dumb bitch def gave me a C- !!!! I'm so pissed...I honestly do not know what to do to get a good grade on a fuckin paper in this class. She says the paper is good, but totally butchers it. Things at home don't help much either to the stress in my life. School is just killing me right now!

I miss Mike so much right now! I cant beleive that its been 4 months already. I wish I could talk to him. I miss being able to call him and him help me with my problems. I love ya Mike! 6-19-05

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(no subject) [Oct. 17th, 2005|02:46 am]
Kristen
[mood |impressedimpressed]

Well sweetest day went good! I got a lot accomplished today. I mailed in my finicial aid stuff, took my ring in to get it resized, went to the mall and did some shopping, went and got my nails done, went ot visit with my grandparents, went out to dinner with aly and jami, went to the bookstore and got a book to start reading, rented some old movies and watched them, and dan came over to watch movies with us and brought my pink roses. I was so happy that I got to hang out with Dan tonight though. It made my day. Then on my way home, I seen a shooting star and made my wish. I just hope that it comes true....! Id be so happy if it did! NEways, I cant help but think about Dan. He always seems to put a smile on my face no matter what :) Nothing but smiles...!

*Kristen*
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Sweetie for Sweetest Day??? [Oct. 15th, 2005|11:48 pm]
Kristen
[mood |stressedstressed]
[music |You and me By: Lifehouse]

Ok so I'm home for the weekend. I hung out with my shorty and Jami today. Jami and me went to BJ's haunted house and it was awesome. Def dont think I'll have a voice tomorrow! I was scared shitless!

Neways something is up and I can't seem to put my finger on it. Im just depressed is the best way to put it. I dont know what to do. I miss mike a lot right now. For some reason I cant stop thinking about the last time I talked to him. I miss being cared about. School is kind of stressing me out. My family is having some health issues that are always on my mind as well. My mind is just all over the place and idk what to do about it. I wanna be able to talk to the people that are closest to me, but I cant. I wanna be able to share things with dan, but im scared....scared of scaring him away. I really like Dan and I want things to work out between us. I'd love to actually have a sweetie for sweetest day, and it be HIM! All I can do it dream though and wish. Maybe God will make my wish come true just this one time. I'd be happy to have a sweetie to cuddle with on sweetest day....

Well I hope I can work things out in my life right now bcause frankly I cant take much more of everything. I will go nuts...lol! This shorty is out! Oh cONGRATS to my shorty for passing her big TEST! I knew u could do it..its easy!

*Kristen*
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(no subject) [Oct. 12th, 2005|01:25 am]
Kristen
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |You and me By: Lifehouse]

I can't help but smile right now. I spent another weekend with Dan. He came up Friday night and left Sunday. It was great to see him. He just seems to keep a smile on my face. P-O-P...pop! How do u spell pop backwards...P-O-P..pop! Alicia: you know Nsync has a song call pop.... P-O-P...pop dirtty pop! hahaha that was so funny to see Dan doing that. He def was trashed after that 5th! Homecomin game was good the score was like 44 -14! Mason won king too which was good! I was so happy for him! OK bed time...i'll update later! Good luck to my shorty for friday!
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